I'm sorry I was away for so long. To be one hundred completely honest... I've been lost in love :') so much has happened in such a short time, but all of it have been amazingly wonderful and I have so many people to thank. And for my close friends here on DA, I'm sorry if I alarmed you with my absence. I finally found a doctor that was able to diagnose the problem I had with my knee. I had torn my ACL and part of my miniscus. When it happened I couldn't tell you, that remains a mystery. It must have been more than a couple of years. During November I underwent surgery and was on crutches for six weeks.
It must have been the longest six weeks of my life. I have never had to depend on someone so much before, the last time I depended on someone like that was when I was only an infant. I couldn't do anything on my own and it made me feel hopeless... My mom was so patient with me, she even helped me bathe everyday when I had the strength to. I was so grateful for my family, including Logan. But it didn't start off all flowers and hearts.For the longest time he acted like an ass. As if I was asking too much from him. I was at my wits end with him. But there was nothing I could do. He lives with me officially.
Then he breaks it to me that he was going to be gone for five days. At that point, I didn't give a shit. I told him good riddance. I thought it would give me time to regenerate all the energy I wasted on keeping him away from hurting my heart. All his words already inflicted pain, but I wouldn't let it phase me. That same night he left he text me. "I miss you so freakin much, everything reminds me of you. I don't think I can last another hour without you. I'm coming back home."
The change of heart surprised me. I still had my guard up. But I wouldn't lie to him... I missed him too just as much. The next day at four in the afternoon he came home. On my crutches, I stood at the door. His car rolled into the driveway, and without even pulling the key out of the ignition he ran up to me and embraced me. He swept me off my feet, and I just knew something was different. There was a red hot emotion in him that he wanted to pour out. His lips crushed mine, and I found my heart soaring. This was the change I was waiting for.
The day that I could tell him I love him without feeling any fear. I feel no spite towards this wonderful man that poured his heart out to me and gave his entire being to me. Literally, everything he is is mine. And everything I am, everything I have is his in return. I've found the love I've been craving for four years.
Four. Years. The love I had to leave behind because I believed it would never be mine. Everything happens for a reason, and for the one time in my life I believe this is fate. He is the one for me, and I don't want anyone else. I want to spend my years with the man that came in to my life as mysteriously as he left. I know he's not going anywhere any time soon.
He's laying beside me